Personal Development

Excited About 2015

     Hello Everybody! How is your 2015 so far? I am excited about this New Year. In fact, after my husband and I got home on the first, it was hard to keep quiet. I would walk around the house and proclaim, this is the 2015 version of Roxie! She is our crazy English Bull Terrier. I sat on the bed with her and told her that she was the upgraded 2015 model who was calmer and a better listener. I told my husband that I was the new 2015 model. I just couldn’t help but feel and express the clean slate that everyone had.

     It was a great feeling to know that I wasn’t ‘starting over.’ That I didn’t have any past mistakes to make up for. That I could start fresh, start a new race. Almost like moving and going to a new neighborhood and a new school. You didn’t have to be the person you were before. All you had to do was present yourself in a different way. No one knew your past faults and struggles. They would just know the you that they are meeting for the first time. They same way I ran around meeting the 2015 versions of everyone.

     My ‘resolutions’ for this year are mostly health related. I don’t think I am going to try anything extreme. I am going to start with the basics. Drink 8 glasses of water, avoid soda, and up my Fitbit step count. I think these are good goals to start with. As much as I love my soda, you know there is a problem when people say to you…. Hey, I saw a Pepsi machine and thought of you. Is that weird? Of course, my honest answer is, no. Quite a few people have associated me with the brand due to fact that I always drank Pepsi.

     If you ask any of my friends how many times I have tried to quit drinking Pepsi, they would have no idea. I’m almost certain that it must feel like I am in the process of quitting something old or starting something new, every other day. Kind of like Dug from the movie UP. I get excited about something. Plan it all out. Start or get ready to squirrel! You might even have a friend like me. You the one, who’s past, present, and future plans are everywhere but the real commitment and proof of accomplishment are nowhere to be found.

     I think it leaves us all in a strange place. It leaves them with, the feeling of You want me to support you in this new / old adventure for it to end in 2 weeks or less. I love you but, I do have better things to do with my time. It leaves me feeling a little down. All I was really looking for was a little support which I know can be exhausting when I’m unrelenting. It is definitely time to prove to myself and others that I am capable of accomplishing things on my own. Support is nice but being able to pull yourself up by your own bootstraps is better. Knowing that you have clean slate and don’t have to pull to hard is even better!


     Don’t let me sit here and sound like a victim! I have lots of support. For some strange reason, all of my friends are still my friends. After listening to me really quit soda this time or lose weight with a diet this way or win the lottery that way. They are really great and put up with a lot. Even my husband’s family has seen the crazy roller coaster and hasn’t convinced him to get rid of me yet. 😉 I even have a couple of friends who are also fighting the good fight. Caffeine in all its delicious forms be damned!

     I am certain that this year is the year of change. I am the new 2015 model after all. It might take me all year to really come to terms with soda. For once I am actually thinking about how it relates to time. I used to just go and give it up, that’s it, no more soda. It just hasn’t happened for me like that. I found an app in December called HabitBull. Right now, I think it is only for the Android but I’m sure they will move to Apple. In the two short weeks it has been on my phone I have managed one magical day. One whole day where I drank my 8 glasses of water and didn’t have a soda. It was December 28th. I remember because it was my little cousins birthday. (And a friend’s birthday!)

     I am willing to focus on my victory. I did it! Now I have a place to improve on. In the next two weeks, I would like to have 2 days of no soda and all water. Now it is time to do some math. Hang on… I’m not that great with math. If I maintain this pattern, I will have 7 days of no soda in a two-week period by April. This means I should be soda free by July 8, 2015! I will try to keep soda at bay except for big things like Thanksgiving and New Years. Can you imagine that? Not really drinking soda except for holiday celebrations?

     With this new and improved way of tackling an old habit, I might be able to apply it starting new ones as well. This blog has seen some craziness. This is one of my better posts for sure. I will focus on this victory too! I hope to write more consistently and start a you tube channel. That of course is the 2014 version trying to do everything at once. Settle down 2014, it is 2015’s turn and I can’t wait to see how it will all turn out.


Once upon a time, there was a beautiful woman full of passion. jolting up from her plush bed she would say, “I’m awake.” After acknowledging her conscious state, she would identify the immediate things that made her happy. Leaving her bed, she bounced along while completing her morning routine. If this was a movie, you would hear I’m Walking On Sunshine.

The song fades as the dressed for the day woman sits at the table with a cup of tea and her planner. Taking stock of her to-dos. She smiles and takes a deep breath. Truly happy. The day was filled with love. Love for herself to start the day off right. Love for her pet with kind corrections and owning the Leading of the Pack role. Love for her husband to make time everyday for a real conversation. Love for her space by cleaning a little bit everyday. Love for her body by eating right and exercising. Love for stability by creating a routine. Love for adventure by doing something new / different twice a month. Love for her friends and family by connecting with them. Love for her mind by reading. Love for her spirit by meditating.

June 23

I recently told my husband that I want to get a Tiara. I know that I sound like a crazy person. I even laughed about it when I told him what I wanted. Making a chart to get a star sticker isn’t working. I need something shiny…. literally shiny to tempt me. Taking care of myself should be a no brainer habit. Right now, my only no brainer habit is vegging. I veg all day. Look up couch potato, and you will see a picture of the current me.

Tiara me is confident, in control, calm, clean, organized, wobble-free, happy, everything works out for me kind of woman.

We all have different selves / faces / personalities / dwarfs. Happy, Sleepy, Dopey, Grumpy, Doc, Sneezy, Bashful, Potato, and Tiara.

Happy for me is desiving. I am happy vegging but I’m not really happy. I guess I have morphed happy into contentment. I don’t want to be content. I want to be happy, really happy. That is where the Tiara comes in. The tiara for me represents wobble-free or balance. Weebulls wobble but they don’t fall down. I don’t want to be down but I don’t want to be up either. (Afraid of heights) Balance, Serenity, Inner Peace. It is being calm in every situation. Now, this is not control. I have lots of control on the couch. I am ready to let go of control. I am ready to be free.

I would wear it everywhere! Especially after an article I read about tiaras. There is a woman who wears her tiara while cycling around London. I was comforted by her acceptance. I wish I could say that I would have worn a tiara everywhere and not care what anyone else thinks. She is still out and about so I should get away with it too.

I love my husband so I won’t where it everywhere. I am looking into alternatives like a ring or a headband. I am leaning twords the headband though.

Oh, back to the being in control, but royalty wears tiaras. I am the Queen of my Castle. As Queen of the Castle, I should look like one, act like one, calm, control, clean, kind. Kind to myself and others.

I googled the words Tiara Psychology and I didn’t like what I saw. Mostly about how awful it is the let children compete in the beauty pageant world. I don’t look at it that way at all. I see it as an object that represents success as well as commanding / influential. I have the power to influence my own thoughts and behaviors. I don’t think I am crazy. I am different, unique, and the world loves different.

Examples of Different: Albert Einstein, Lucille Ball,

If wearing a tiara everyday makes me crazy, then fine. It shouldn’t bother me since, the crazy part of my life is that…. I’m kind of crazy already. Not taking care of personal hygiene, is crazy. Not wanting to go anywhere without my husband, is crazy. Diving into a new hobby every week, is crazy. Everyday looking like yesterday, is crazy. If looking like a crazy person will make me less crazy / wobble-free, I say bring on the balance. Bring me my Tiara!

Sore and aching, she dragged  herself out of bed. When she passed by the bathroom mirror she assessed her body. Badly bruised mostly around the mid section and ego. Wrapping a dark blue robe around before starting the day. Breakfast consisted of soda, junk food, and a large portion of self-pity. The rest of the day is divided between planing to do something or doing nothing.

It had been a while since she visited her office. Dust covered her old passions like a lid over toys in storage. She ran her index finger across a large book that was on her desk. Gold letters appeared in the dust free line. Taking a deep breath and blew. Nothing happened, just like the balloons she had once tried to inflate. Damn balloons. Discarding that memory, she sacrificed a fuzzy sleeve to the cause and uncovered the title.

     Life and Random Projects

     Inspired by a video to make the smallest things a victory, she felt accomplished. Her house didn’t noticed the shift in vibration after one book was reclaimed from the dark. Although she felt it, she had no idea that this small action would cascade into many actions. Armed with old and new knowledge, she went about the rest of her day like nothing happened.


   This video is kind of long at a whopping 25 minutes. Lots of good stuff. I am going to cut back on all my projects. This doesn’t mean that I won’t get to my big list. I just figured out the big three things I really need to be working on. Then, at the end of each week I will take stock and celebrate. Winning feels good. Even if your goal is to simply put on your work out clothes 5 days a week. You may not have made it to the gym but you accomplished your goal, and that feels good. 🙂


Definitions matter. We have the need to label everything. Tag things in a box with a common name that everyone else will understand. Like with like. It is part of the communication process. Understanding each other and finding people with similar interests and backgrounds is comforting. Despite these familiar feelings, each word still means something a little different to each person.

According to Merriam Webster Dictionary, success is defined as:

1: obsolete : outcome, result
2 a : degree or measure of succeeding
b : favorable or desired outcome; also : the attainment of wealth, favor, or eminence
3: one that succeeds

When you see that word:   Success  what pictures does your brain conjure up? Is it getting a good grade? Spending time with family? Providing a comfortable living for your family? Managing a large project at work? Doing what you love and getting paid to do it?

We all want to succeed at the things that are important to us. The first step than is to decide. Decide what is important and what you truly want. As of this post, my To Do list is full, random, and without real direction. The reason for that is that I haven’t made a decision. The only way to get to where you want to go is to have directions. Having a clear map with step by step or day by day instructions will help you get there.



What is the best way to success?

It seems like everyone these days is trying to get you to buy their method to success. Let’s say you follow through, and are unhappy when you get the finish line. If you are unhappy, would you call yourself successful? I know I wouldn’t. In this case, just like everyone has their own definitions, than everyone has their own map. We don’t need to get caught up in what our family and friends think we should do. We need to take the time, and draw our own map to success.

How to draw your own map?

The first part is easy. You already know what you want so make a list. I think better when my pen glides across paper. You might be more comfortable typing or recording your voice. Either way, it is time to list out all your wants. Travel to another country, learning a new language or how to play a particular instrument, retire in the next 10 years, start a face painting business. There is nothing to outrageous when it comes to your list. It is all your own!  A list of one hundred is a good start. You will change your mind here and there as you grow but you can always edit it as you flow through life.

Now, you take your list, and divide it between Long Term and Short Term. Deciding what is more important to you will help see what you want to do this year. You keep narrowing your focus until it is so sharp, you not only know what you’re doing today, but know that it is helping you accomplish your Success Map.

This weeks Definitions That Design Challenge:  Make your list and break it into small pieces.

~Cheers to you, life, and random projects~

Just Drop It

It sounds so easy right? Just to drop it, let it go, get on with your life. Some days it is easier than others. For certain subjects that are close to you, it can be even harder. What if you are struggling with something that happened years ago? It may seem silly on the outside, but very real emotions on the inside.

I listened to some audio from Jim Britt the other day. It was all about the power of letting go. He said a couple of things about the things we carry with us. The first was that it isn’t on our shoulders dragging us down. In fact, we hold on to these things. It is a cool thing to realize because if we choose to hold on to it, we can choose to let it go.

I hope to master that one day in the future. I imagine seeing a world full of solutions instead of trying to maintain the illusion of control. I can think of a couple of situations that all worked out once I stopped trying to figure it all out. Stopped getting in my own way. Even talking about letting go makes me feel more free. Free from worry and doubt. Free to really do the things I want to do. I am excited about Jim Britt and Jim Lutes new project. I can’t wait for the launch. I look forward to gaining some new ideas.

You can check the project out here:

A quote a friend shared on Facebook: “My set backs may have amused you, but my comebacks are going to confuse you.”

Cheers to you, life, random projects and the closing of 2013.